Hi Again :)

So I'm guessing everyone wants to hear about how my new job went. Well....ITS AWESOME!! I really love it! I'm always busy with things to do, I get to hook up people to e stims, get them prepped with heat or ice, and give people ultrasounds! It's awesome! Plus I get use my OCD-ness because I have to wipe down every table after they are used and change their pillowcases, this has turned out to be both a good thing and a bad thing. Good because I really keep up with all the cleaning and laundry at work, but bad because I come home and start doing it too, which I guess isn't SUCH a bad thing lol. But ya, so I really like it the physical therapists are really nice and patient with me as I'm trying to learn everything. I just need to figure out how and when I'm going to eat in between my jobs. I work from 7:30 am to 12:00 pm at SHCC then go to MVP from 1:00 pm to 6:30 pm. I would much rather work another half hour at SHCC just to get more hours but that shortens my lunch break so I feel like to get from one job to the other in proper time I have to resort to fast food on the way to MVP. Any ideas??? Well thats the "new job" update, I hope everyone's curiousity has been satisfied lol.

Hello From Afar!

So since you guys seem to think I have dropped off the face of the earth I thought I would start writing on here more! So...lets see...to catch you up. I have moved out, I painted my room yellow (I know I know I already painted one room yellow but I freaking like yellow! So deal!!! haha), and I bought a cute new bedspread. It might need some decorations, a poster or too, but for now, I'm happy with it :) My guitar will do for decoration lol. Speaking of my guitar, I try to play it at least once a day or once every other day. If not for the sake of getting better, just to keep my calluses (spell check? those things that feel like sand paper or in Dustin's case the things that turn slightly green on his feet and smell funny lol love you Dustin!!!) I only can play like three or four songs but I love my guitar and I love playing the few songs I know. I like working for my dad a lot, Laurie is an awesome boss and coworker, her and I work really well together. My hours have been cut back a lot lately due to the slow-ness of the studies lately but we should be starting some new ones soon! In the meantime to stay financially stay afloat and to maintain my independence I recently got a part time job at MVP Physical Therapy in Bremerton as a physical therapy aide. And for those of you who know my future career goals, you know this is PERFECT for me lol. I had my training yesterday and really think I'm going to learn a lot and enjoy it. I got to hook up people to muscle stims with heat and ice and stuff it was cool. Today is my first real day so it should be interesting. They have a paper chart system that doesn't seem very efficient but I guess I've just been spoiled with awesome technology at SHCC lol. So ya, that is home, work, what else....oh the boyfriend? His name is Cory he is 19, he works at the shipyard, most of you (except the brothers) have met him. He's kinda quiet but he is really nice, smart, random like me, and sweet (he bought me the movie Up the other day just because he knows I like Disney movies a lot and he has learned my love for Dr. Pepper and candy and uses this knowledge frequently by suprising me with them sporatically). So ya, overrall I'm loving life right now and don't want you guys to feel like I don't want you to be part of it anymore cuz I moved out. I love you all very much and love having you as family no matter how much I don't act like it. Well...got to go to work! Don't want to be late on my first real day at MVP! See ya :)

I hope...

I hope this last song lyric doesn't offend anyone, I wrote it in the amidst of all the...discussions...and it's how I felt and how I feel. I hope no one takes it the wrong way. I love you guys!!

Faces

All my life I've tried on different faces,
Trying to find the one that fits in all the right places,
With some faces I am brave and strong,
With others I am wild and wrong.
Each face lead to a lesson learned,
A mistake, a trial, or achievement earned.
And through the ups and downs of this roller coaster ride,
I changed my face more times than the ocean tide.

Find the face that makes you the best,
Find the face that fits you more than the rest,
Find what makes you happy more than anything,
Find what makes you smile, dance, and sing.

At times I changed my face to please others,
Other times I changed my face to hang with my brothers.
I changed based on what the world expected,
Changed due to the values my family respected.
Face after face I tried on like dresses in a clothing store,
And after each try I find myself wanting more.
I begin to search harder to find something to replace,
All the doubts and insecurities I feel with each wrong face.

Find the face that makes you the best,
Find the face that fits you more than the rest,
Find what makes you happy more than anything,
Find what makes you smile, dance, and sing.

Who you are is the face you show,
And when you find the right face you'll know

Now I know, I found the face that's the best fit,
The face of who I want to be down to the very last bit.
I don't care what anyone will say,
Cause they don't get me in any way.
And I will be that me for all to see,
Because that's the me I want to be.

Lyrics

The lyrics below are just me kinda messing around but I want to try putting music to them when I get back home. I know it's kinda sloppy and amature but any thoughts??

Daily Colors

Every day is like a blank canvas
Waiting to be filled with the colors that it brings
Each color with a certain meaning
All making the portrait of me

A streak of red for the love I feel when that boy makes me smile,
A dash of yellow for a happy thought that stayed awhile,
A line of black for the angry words I said to my brother,
A dab of green for the envy I felt towards another,
A hint of blue for the sadness I see in the world,
A splash of orange for that playful bounce in my curl,
A touch of purple for the serenity I feel as I waited,
To fill the white background of the day still yet to be painted

Today’s portrait might look like a red sunset with colors vibrant,
Or it might look like a blue ocean with colors cool,
Whatever the ending portrait may be,
The rainbow of colors on my canvas will show how I really feel.

A streak of red for the love I feel when I save a child from danger,
A dash of yellow for a happy smile I showed to a random stranger,
A line of black for the angry way I slammed my bedroom door,
A dab of green for the envy I feel when I see people with more,
A hint of blue for the sadness I feel when others feel my wrath,
A splash of orange for that playful sound in my laugh,
A touch of purple for the serenity I feel as I waited,
To fill the white background of the day still yet to be painted

Will my canvas show a variety of shades,
Or only the blank portrait of white,
What feelings will I paint with today,
To reflect the colors of my life.

A streak of red for the love I feel when I hold a baby near,
A dash of yellow for a happy moment that brings a tear,
A line of black for the angry thoughts I had in my head,
A dab of green for the envy filled words that I had said,
A hint of blue for the sadness in not saying thanks every once in awhile,
A splash of orange for that playful glint in my smile,
A touch of purple for the serenity I feel as I waited,
To fill the white background of the day still yet to be painted

Colors

"Be every color that you are"